My mind is is a rock, and it hangs heavily over everything I do, while my heart...
Oh, my heart. It is pulling me East. To the "you" that spared me one evening of your fame-ridden life. The "you" that awoke burgeoning wants I only dreamt I had. I want to leave myself. I want to desert what I have spent years building (and at the moment am finally coming to appreciate).
Everything. Uprooted, for you. Never have I so badly screamed for a dream life. Deep discussions about mundane obscurities, guitar harmonies, late-night slow dances, and your laughter colliding into the walls until we're laying in ruins, under a soft veil of stars.
I want to come sweetly undone. And everyone, all the while, watching in awe.
I don't think there is room for me here. Here, in this landlocked jungle, where everyone is a recycled version of both their true selves and the selves they let fall. Where everyone is fighting over the scraps of brilliance that pass, flighty, through this town. As a dream, you disappear with the morning.
I want to see. The way they all scream for you. The way your hair frames your eyes when you smile. This is entirely too much.
I can feel the strong hands of the universe.
And they are ripping me apart.
- Current Mood: listless
Hoowwww much am I loving this song right now?
Answer: Perhaps too much
Can't wait for spring and having nothing to do. Hopefully that doesn't turn out to be a bad thing..
- Where It's At:Off my rocker
- Current Mood: contemplative
- Tunage:Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros
[and I thought the original was amazing..but this version puts Sufjan on an entirely new level]
In the van with my friend
It was for freedom
From myself and
From the land.
- Current Mood: confused
Oh, if I could smile at anything you said.
We could be laughing lovers...
I think you'd prefer to be miserable instead.
If I could love I'd love you,
Oh, if I could love like anybody else...
Like anybody else...
Like anybody else.
Guess who's FINALLY SEEING FRANZ FERDINAND TOMORROW!?!?!?!
THAT'S RIGHT, THIS COWGIRL IS.
- Current Mood: ecstatic
But you're just a boy,
You don't understand...
- Current Mood: crazy
I'm not sure if this is just me, but it feels like I am constantly evolving... to the point where I think of myself in each year previous and I can hardly stand it.
Is a life of perpetual embarassment normal?
What is the purpose of this confidence if a year from this date, I will be looking upon myself and shaking my head in disgust at the way I used to walk, laugh, and treat others?
It is trainwrecks such as this that leave me wide awake and wondering at 4:35 in the morning.
- Current Mood: frustrated
- Tunage:Melissa McClelland
Lou Reed, where would I be without you?
- Current Mood: numb
- Tunage:perfect day
- Current Mood: quixotic